My friend procrastination is back!

Back again. Woke up very early (sixish) and have done nothing so far this morning. Not entirely true, I have spent time on the computer. I've done a bit of work, but I certainly have not done anything physical in any way..............my friend procrastination has reared her head again.

My life is full of so many great ideas and good intentions but I just can't get it together. Probably the best thing to do is log off this computer and get going. Lists help me. If I put together a do-to list I feel more compelled to actually do it. Here goes.............

1. Shower/dress (pathetic I have to force myself to do this)
2. LEGO tournament at Niagara College
3. clean condo -recycling
4. laundry
5, visit exercise room
6. put together an exercise plan
7. log onto spark people
8 record nutrition
9make a list of work to be done this week-end
10 NAP!!!

tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life

Had a good day at work today. Not one complaint. I think it's a first! Came home a little earlier than ususal today so I am actually feeling not as tired as usual. It's Friday night and I am relaxing at home but I definitely am going out this week-end and not just lazing around all day at home as the last several week-ends have been.

Actually, I haven't really been lazing, just procratinating all the work I have to do. I sit here with my work and think about what I have to do but get distracted from the TV, the cross-words etc etc etc etc.

Tomorrow...............for sure!!!.............I am going to get up and get dressed and actually go for a walk. I now live in beautiful Port Dalhousie, right next to the lake so I am going to start to enjoy it! We even have a gym downstairs...........I don't have to drive to a gym, pay monthly dues..........the gym is right there and I am going to start to use it!! HONEST!! Like the blog says, tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life.

Well, I guess that's not what it really says but let's hope it works....no more procrastination. I am finally going to lose this weight and keep it off and feel better about myself. The last time I lost weight I did it bit by bit and it really wasn't that hard, it was just being consistent. I felt so good, had lots of energy and I could go into stores and buy clothes I actually liked to wear!

Another stage of my life was when I was running. I really felt a sense of accomplishment then. I CAN DO IT!!! I just have to get off of my rear-end to do it............I have no one but myself to blame or praise.

I will keep posting on this blog my successes and losses as I go along.

I am here all alone. Kids are all on their own and hubby has gone to visit parents for the night. Just a call from the youngest who is gone to school in Kingston. Had a big fight the other night with her because she wanted me to co-sign a loan for her for a new car. I said NO! She is in school and needs to worry about school, not car parents etc etc. Her reasoning was that she got a new job so can afford the car and she needs the car to get to her job. To me it was just circular reasoning but I can't tell her anything. The call tonight she informed me she got financing on her own because she got an older car. She needs to learn on her own...........she won't learn from me as she just WON'T LISTEN!!!!!!

Since I am all alone..............I have been watching all of the episodes of the first season of Californication. It's interesting and it is making my life seem OK.

Being alone is just fine. All week long I have people talking to me, asking me questions, etc etc etc...... I come totally tired every night and then still have a few hours of work to do on the laptop. While I was getting my nails done today (on a Saturday, not a workday like some other principals I know) I was thinking about how many hours I put into work. I average about 55 hours a week........at least! It wouldn't bother me except I feel like I don't get any credit for it. Yes, of course I get a paycheque, but while others are getting their nails done during worktime, I am actually working very hard, thank you very much, and get no credit.

I thought that once we got a new director things would change, but after our last director's meeting it was the most blatant meeting yet of showing off the "ins" versus the "in-nots" I am definitely not one of the "ins". I don't know why it bothers me so much because I should be proud of what I do rather than who I know.

I had a lot of errands to run today. One of them was to get my car washed. It felt great driving my new car shining clean again. I also picked up a few groceries from Wright brothers (0nly fresh vegetables there) and I also picked out shoes from the Boot Shop. I am officially old as I am getting orthodics for my shoes. It is a Catch-22. Do I need orthodics because of my weight issues, or do I have weight issues because I need orthodics???

As this blog states, this is the First Day of the Rest of My Life. We have moved to a new condo in Port Dalhousie. I am going to have new orthodics!! This is certainly a new beginning!

There is so much going on and yet so little going on. I am so busy dealing with work I have such little time to deal with my life. In the new condo there is an exercise room and yet I haven't been in it since the real estate agent showed it to us months ago.......I can do it.........OK.........tomorrow is the day I actually go in there and DO SOMETHING!!!

If it is to be.............it is up to me................(I am so full of corny lines)

Psychic Powers

I spent the week-end in New York City with the girls. We ended up at Little Italy and passed by a sign advertising "Psychic Readings and Advice." I thought why not blow a few bucks? Marg and I went and investigated. My other two friends walked up the street with their gellato pretending they didn't know us.



The brief reading I got was right on. I was surprised how accurate she was in describing me and some members of my family. Marg's reading somehow disturbed her although she didn't share what was said as she was warned by the psychic not to talk about it. Anybody out there have experiences with psychics? I went years and years ago and she said some really absurd things that really did come true!



I went on Google today and searched out physics. There is actually a course offered in Niagara Falls regarding opening yourself up to your own physic abilities. I also saw advertised a Continuing Education course at Niagara College for "Abundance, Prosperity and the Law of Attraction." I am really curious about the whole thing. I am being scammed? Is there something to this? Can we really just open ourselves up to a better life? Is that "The Secret?"

I think I have truly hit a mid-life crisis. I am looking for more, but I am not sure what that more is.....................CAN ANYBODY OUT THERE HELP ME????

Back At It..........Procrastination, My Enemy!

Here it is, the end of July and finally back at making an attempt to blog. I re-read what I wrote in my last posts, and I feel I haven't lived up to what I am trying to do..........live each day, trying to improve myself. The hecticness of life just seems to get in the way.

Terry and I have been trying to sell the house with no luck. We had put in an offer on a condo in Port and I was soooooooooo excited about moving there. Unfortunately, our offer was bumped by a cash deal and we had to let it go. As always, it turns out there may actually be an even better place on the market. I have decided not to get excited about it and just wait until our house finally does sell and then we will look. I seemed to have put everything on hold until we moved to the condo. I had all of these plans, I will start exercising after we move, I will start eating better after we move, I will organize myself better, after we move. I realize I have put my life on hold until after the move. Can't live like that.

As I started out...........today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am hoping by reaching out through this blog I will remind myself of that every day.

I read on someone else's blog to set goals the writer made a list of 101 things to do within the next 1001 days. Not a bad idea.

My biggest enemy is procrastination. I will take the advice of the blogger and start setting some goals. I think I will make my list a little shorter and my time frame a little shorter. The adage the journey of a thousand miles starts with one step.

Hopefully I will be back tomorrow with my list complete!

Stuff vs. Empty Space

It is now April............no April showers yet and to be honest I am a tad disappointed. I actually like the rain. The rain helps clear away the muss and dirt from winter and it also helps clear my head. The snow is now gone but the grass is still looking rather brown. It describes my mood.
I must be going through some kind of midlife crisis. I can't decide what to do with my life but I know I must do something..........I am in desperate need of huge change. I want to clean out my life.

The house seems rather big and empty and expensive for just me and Terry to be living in. Kaitlin still makes the basement her home but she is only here to sleep and to change her clothes. Not that I mind, I like the quiet. After 20 years of having kid noise all the time, the peace and quiet of my mind has been very relaxing.

Terry and I went to look at a condo the other night. I really liked it and was ready to move right in. Unfortunately Terry hated it.....no place for all his "stuff". His stuff is what is driving me crazy about this house. After one room gets filled, he starts filling up another room. I tried Flylady for decluttering but Terry gets very upset when I throw out his stuff.

What does all this stuff mean? Is there something wrong with me that I am not sentimental and don't want to keep anything? I am more happy with empty space than with anything else.

I Did It!!

Well I figured it out...........I finally posted my blog, but unfortunately my day two comes before my day one.................who knew? I am always looking for some philosophical reasons why things happen.............I think I figured out this one...........if you notice..........If there is really anyone out there reading this blog................I think I identified myself best on day two............middle-aged and restless..........certainly not theYoung and the Restless..................That should be the name of this BLOG!!! Second day and I have had a eureka moment........

Any other middle-age and restless people out there???????

Day Two

While each day is the first day, this is day two of my blog. I am still very unsure as to what to do as yesterday's blog is not posted so I know I am doing something wrong. Checked out utube and found a video explaining how to start. I followed it exactly, not very hard, but it didn't work. I have a blog....just no posts. What's the point of that?



Here it is, Easter Sunday, and there was no celebration. No Easter egg hunt, no festivities. I made chicken for supper. That was a close to turkey as I got. With no kids around I didn't have the gumption to do anything to celebrate Easter. (OK...I did eat a chocolate Easter bunny a kindergarten student gave me at school)



Jennifer, my youngest (19!) will be home from school in England on April 11th so we are having our family Easter celebration that week-end on the 13th. My mom will be down so she will cook a fabulous meal.



Got lots of work done this week-end however. Made my "to do" list and actually followed it. Laundry finished , school work done, bills paid.....................Oh My God! On my second day I have turned this blog into something it is not supposed to be! I "googled" how to create a blog and the number one rule was not to be boring, a list of things you did all day is not of interest to anyone.....maybe 22nd century historians about how a typical middle-aged/restless/ mother/wife/woman lives?

First, First Day

This is the first day of the rest of my life............talk about a cliche! But that is exactly what it is. This is my first time ever blogging and I thought my blog should be more than just a diary or journal.........................more of a journey, to make my life better.





Not that my life if bad. I am a middle-aged (46....to the best of my recollection) mother of three children, happily married (most days) to a crazy guy that keeps me guessing all the time. My kids are all gone, out into the real world, making their own lives. (Well, sort of.....their own lives are on my buck) My two daughters are university students and my son is on his own, just starting his first permament full-time job on Monday!





While life is good, there is always room for improvement. After all these years, I am still watching the pennies (some days just dollars, which gets me in trouble) I am still watching my weight (watching it go up and up) and watching me huff and puff even more as I go up the stairs.



So while life is good, I want to make it better.......healthier, fitter, wiser, calmer, more satisfied.